I used to believe much of what you write here, but after a “kidney stone” vacation and a picture of my “inner workings”, I realized that age is more than a number. It is mileage on the body. Mileage that young people do not have on their organs, joints and nervous systems. Don’t get me wrong, the self-knowledge that living more than half century is a growing revelation and the “slipperiness” of time much more obvious. However, growing old in a society with a healthcare system like we have here in the US is quite terrifying. I feel a bit haunted by it. I know this is only going to get worse too as I get older, too. I need to somehow to come to grips with the fact that at any moment I am far more likely to have some kind of “mechanical” failure than when I was in my twenties or thirties or even my forties, but how to shake that “ghost”, I do not know. I used to just ignore and live my life as energetically as I could, but a trip through America’s healthcare system in 2016 has darkened the rose-colored glasses and made “ignore” no longer an option. Of course, the ONLY option to “getting old” kind of sucks, so just gotta deal with it, I guess

Look Sancho there is a windmill over there!

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